Fall Semester Coming to an End

The fall semester is almost over.  Only two more weeks before it’s time for finals.  Only six more classes to go and then I’ll have my Associates in Psychology and Sociology and my Certification in Behavioral Science.  I should be jumping for joy.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy.  I see a light at the end of the tunnel but at what cost?  I’m physically and mentally drained.  School is fricken hard!  I knew it would be challenging but I had no clue that I would sometimes feel like I was going to have a nervous breakdown.  Seriously! School takes a toll on your mental health.

It can really wear you out and have you doubting so many things.  Should I finish?  Is it worth it?  How many more hours should I study?  Am I going to ace this test?  What am I doing wrong?  It creates so much confusion that you literally find yourself battling with yourself everyday. The amount of pressure the professors put on their students. The amount of pressure parents put on their children is insane.  Don’t get me wrong, a part of me gets it but I’m not sure this is something I could have handled in my early 20’s.  I think by now I would be bat sh$t crazy.

There is a lot to remember. It seems like every teacher has the same deadline.  Why is everything done at the same time? Midterms, finals, assignments, etc.  It is very overwhelming, challenging but rewarding at the same time. I know I’ll get through it and I’ll live.  I’m glad I’ll have a four-week break.  Not sure what classes I really want to take or how many at this point.  I really need to be strategic and make sure I have a good mix of not too hard but also interesting.  Until then, I’m going to do my best and stay in prayer. That’s all I can do!